Are you stuck in a comfort zone?

A year ago this month my whole life changed. I was on an amazing course run by strength and conditioning guru Charles Poliquin. The course (biosignature modulation) was amazing. It taught me about how increased body fat in certain areas of the body are related to different hormones. For example belly fat is related to cortisol while fat on the backs of the legs is related to environmental estrogen. I was really excited about getting back to work and helping my clients find a balance in their body that would affect body fat, mood, energy and much more.

At the same time as being on this amazing course I was going through a really tough time. I found out (during the course) that my boyfriend of the time had been unfaithful AND he was there on the course with me! It was a strange week for me because during the day on the course I was completely absorbed in learning and excited about how this information could change lives.. but as soon as I left I would crumble and start feeling awful. To get me through the evenings I would stop off at waitrose for some red wine and chocolate or go to the pub on my own and then go back to the apartment and cry. I felt completely alone and desperate especially because I was away from home and staying with my boyfriend and two of his friends. The emotions I experienced were some of the most extreme I have ever experienced in my life. One day after the course I felt so alone and upset that in the middle of the street I started screaming at the top of my voice at my boyfriend. If you would have been there to witness it you would have thought I was crazy. I was crying my eyes out and felt completely out of control. At the same time there was another feeling in the background. Relief that now I could focus on what was really important in my life and Strength – a knowing that I was going to come out of this a stronger person.

Coming back from the course I was confused as it seemed I had 2 voices speaking to me in my mind. One was saying you're free now, go through the grief and everything is going to be amazing. I felt elated by that thought. At the same time there was a voice saying you are safe here in this relationship. He wants you back. You could have all the things you have been planning – a joint personal training business, a new flat, kids you won't find any better. But deep down I knew that would be wrong. It was soooo tempting to stay in my comfort zone. And I truly understand why so many people choose to stay there. But I tasted something sweet.

On the course that feeling I had of complete and utter aloneness felt scary and at first I found it hard to deal with. But there was something underneath that scariness that was exciting, new. I felt like new possibilities were only available to me here.

SO a few weeks after coming back to London I made a decision. I was not going backwards or around in circles any more. There was only one possible option and that was to move into the unknown and forwards with my life :))) The feeling I experienced after clarifying this was beautiful. I felt free for the first time in years.

Ever since making that decision I feel as though I have been rewarded greatly by the Universe. In the past year I have learnt from some of the most amazing teachers I have ever met in my life. I feel like almost by magic the right people, books, courses, lessons (some challenging!) or events come up just when I need them. I feel like just as I start to feel stuck or back into a comfort zone again, someone or something pops up to remind me not to stay there. We must move and go with the flow to feel the magic of being alive. Go with your instincts and follow your heart at all times. If it is scary then all the more reason to go there. The rewards are waiting.

'Go with the flow and you will reach the source' Diana Cooper